Bobby Jenkins: The Diary of a Bipolar Bear

Chews Lithium

Dear Diary, Le sigh. Over committed and under committed to. The story of my life, Diary!!! I’m starting to think that I only date safe bets coz they’re the ones who actually stick around. It’s not by choice. A grim realization.  Am I hard to love?...

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Being Manic Around Boys In Bars

Dear Diary, Damn it’s easy to fall in love. Maybe it’s a subset of being manic? I swear. I’m desert thirsty for some love & affection that isn’t bought. There’s something terrible about feeling connected to a stripper until you’re watching him...

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Stalking My Ex On Instagram

Dearest Diary, I’ve hit a new level on the messy betch meter. After opening up a fake account, I can now indiscriminately creep my exes without risking liking a 115 week old pic.  Boy have I found some gems. First, I wasn’t surprised that Lee had...

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Progress Makes Perfect

Dear Diary, Progress makes perfect. I hate the word practice Diary, it gives me PTSD of my soccer days. I was always too fat for soccer. But I don’t give a fuck anymore because I’m not too fat for dating soooo 🙂 After a long night of dancing with...

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I Deserve A Birthday Rager

Dear Diary, I’m getting old and slowly more bleached so I knew I deserved a birthday rager. I was nervous running by the new roommate until he was so enthusiastic that I wondered if there was a language barrier.  He immediately ripped off his top...

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The Irony Of Depression

Dear Diary, The irony of depression is that I have no energy, but I also can’t focus. Everyone thinks I’m mad at them and keeps demanding explanations.  I feel like I’m the evil-twin version of myself. I’ve lost my manners, my sleeping...

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Grindr, Manicures, and Beartox

Dear Diary, The single landscape is tricky for a bear like me. I don’t know how to date (off of Grindr) and I feel like I’m terrible at flirting (in real life). Either that or I need Beartox (note to self: look into rates) and maybe a manicure… I’m...

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Sugar Bears, Crack Bears, and Triggers

Dear Diary, New areas are great. They put everything into context. I used to think I was crazy and had overcome great lengths. Which I have… but IN my small town. My two worldly, international roommates have slapped things into perspective for me....

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Moving, Clinginess, and Wolf Pepper Spray

Dear Diary, Moving has me SHOOK, Diary. It’s been emotionally, physically and financially taxing as fuck. There’s finding a place, movers, roommates (not even soulmate roommates, just ones that don’t talk, really…) and then fitting your stuff into...

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Being A Straight Bear For Gender Roles Sake

Dear Diary, Dating’s fun. I needed to be knocked down a few pegs. From lack of matches on Grindr to fake numbers in the club – I think I needed this. I met a straight boy- at a gay club- and we went for drinks. I tried to flex my “I’m older...

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Relapsing Into Rage

Here’s the thing, Diary. I know that when you’re Crazy you think that it’s everyone else that is causing you conflict. But when you’re sane- you realize you were responsible for a lot of the conflict. This gives you a healthy dose of doubt when...

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