Hey Everyone! It’s me, Ellis! And I just got back from something called ‘The Hoffman Process.’ I know what you’re thinking. What’s ‘The Hoffman Process’ and why did you go?
Both of those are super duper, duper, questions and I’ll answer the second one first because I’m feeling pretty uncrummy today and I feel like shaking things up.
I know you know this about me….being sad all the time? And crummy stuff like that. And I was always talking bad things to myself. Like my inside voice was always like ‘you’re crummy Ellis’, or ‘look at the crummy job you did at work’ or ‘why would that person want to date a crum-bum like you?’ Do any of you lovely folks talk like that to yourselves? It’s not fun I tell you. In fact, it’s pretty much the crummiest thing, being your own worst crum-bum of an enemy.
One of my earth friends, Laurel Leaside, kept pointing out to me that I kept on making the same mistakes over and over. And old crummy me didn’t understand what that meant until one day I trusted the wrong person and my crummy life came crashing down all around me. That’s when I realized that I’ve been here before. And everything that Laurel was trying to tell me was true, but I wasn’t ready to listen.
So that’s when I decided to go take the Hoffman Process, which is all about pattern breaking and I was super scared going there, as it was 8 days and I slept there over night, and I have special dietary needs, and I was gonna miss my friends and I knew I was gonna have to look in the mirror and answer a lot of questions about my crummy self.
I’m not going to go into complete detail about what happens there, as you shouldn’t know, just in case one of you reading this ever goes, but it was super helpful.
You know, I talk real crummy to myself sometimes, a lot. And I found out that I talk crummy to myself because I learned that way of talking from my parents. And I’m not going to call my parents crum-bums either as they learned their way of talking from their parents too.
So even though my parents were crummy when they talked to me, in a strange way, it wasn’t their choice. And now, I talk to myself in the same crummy way and I do a lot of other things over and over again that I don’t like, that I learned from my parents too. And I’m sure they didn’t like repeating their mistakes either, but they were too scared to do anything about it all as we lived on a planet that wasn’t too big on independent thinkers.
But guess what? Thanks to having super awesome non-crum-bum friends like Laurel Leaside, who don’t judge me and want to see me become super better at everything, I’m not as scared as I used to be. In fact, on days like today, I feel like I could conquer the world.
So my one word or phrase of advice is this ‘Don’t ever let anyone tell that you’re no good, especially yourself.’
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