I Believed In Myself Once

Posted by Edward Ernest | Jul 2, 2018 | Art, Comics, Depression, The Great Depression | 0 |

Have you ever had your life finally going in the right direction after a long internal struggle, only to have the rug pulled from right under your feet? Then all of a sudden, after believing in yourself once, now you’re barely hanging on?

It’s like if you were on the Titanic, not a first class passenger, but a comfortable passenger. Then when the ship hit that iceberg, the first class passengers got the spots on the lifeboats first, which left you fending for your life. Now, what you deemed as being a comfortable life became quite the contrary. And all it took was one event to change how you think.

And to keep going with the Titanic analogy, you’re now in the freezing cold water, holding onto anything that will float in hopes that you can climb on top of it, or at least keep your head above water while you wait for help to arrive. However, you can’t control when that help will arrive, and in the meantime, you’re in a struggle just to live.

When these types of things happen, obtrusive thoughts begin to infiltrate your brain as you start seeing yourself as a failure. ‘Why wasn’t I wealthy enough to be a first-class passenger? Maybe I should have worked harder?” These thoughts come with shame, embarrassment, and even guilt. You feel all alone. And there’s nothing that anyone can say or do to make you think otherwise, and that’s even if you weren’t too embarrassed to admit your current shortcomings to the people trying to comfort you in the first place.

I’m sure these types of feelings were quite prevalent during The Great Depression when it was difficult to house and feed your family every day. Some very proud people were forced to take some handouts which must have taken a massive toll on their self-esteem. And even though times have changed since then, the depression that we feel inside of us today remains the same. Just no that you are not alone.

Some people don’t need anything to find themselves in a depressed state, whereas others get triggered by an event, like financial woes, health issues, and even the way you look. In these situations, there’s a lot of confidence involved, and one can find themselves in a dark hole pretty fast with the belief that there is no way out. It’s a scary and lonely place to be. And if you’re there right now, then we here at Massive Phobia are sending you big hugs right now. And if you need help, please check out our resource section.

For all of you that are still reading and know what we’re talking about, the below sketch cartoon we made is just for you. If you have a mental health emergency, please check out our resource page for the phone numbers you need for your specific country and please don’t hesitate in doing so.

Let’s do our best to all be there for each other and make things that might make us smile, and hopefully laugh in the process. If you want to participate with some ideas or with a little bit of art for us, please email at submit@massivephobia.com

If you or a loved one you know battles with Mental Health Issues, please do get the help you need. If you need to talk to someone now, you can talk to one of the many fantastic therapists at Better Help by CLICKING HERE.


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