Hi, I’m Edward Ernest and I have body dysmorphia….. I’m sweating. This feels like an AA meeting…… I guess it kinda is. Anyway, back to my body dysmorphia. I, like many of you, have never been comfortable in my own skin. What I see in the mirror is completely different from what other people see. In my life, at the tender age of 21, I was anorexic. When I look at those pictures now, I can’t believe no one around me said a thing. I was skin and bone. It didn’t last long as I needed to eat and my choices after that were quite poor. Needless to say, my weight has since fluctuated always. When I got bigger, I eventually found my way back to the skinny by using various techniques, such as health scares and copious amounts of appetite depressing illegal drugs. However, the one thing that didn’t change, no matter my size, was the way I viewed myself. It’s not healthy and even though I know it’s not healthy, I still do it. Right now I’m in great shape. I’ve done it by eating healthy and exercising every day. Almost two months ago I couldn’t run around a track once and last week I ran in my first 5km race. I’m doing quite well….except I still can’t shake how I view myself. I’m working on why I keep doing this with my therapist. I just wanted to share with all of you because I wanted you to know that you’re not alone. I hope you join me by making your own videos and sharing with us here at The Phobias List. Make up your own lyrics to the tune of ‘I Sing the Body Electric‘, but you must include the lyrics ‘I Sing the Body Dysmorphic’. Then tell us how you see yourselves and have fun with it. Let’s conquer this together.