I used to walk down the streets and imagine myself doing god knows what at all hours of the night. In my mind, I’d show up to work the following day and barely be able to keep my eyes open. I’d get yelled at for being a slacker. I was just a dreamer, not meant to be living the 9-5 lifestyle.
In reality, I just never had the confidence to be the person I dreamed of being. It was always easier and more socially acceptable to take the road well travelled.
I wanted to experience the pulse of night and have it inspire me to write about all of the shenanigans I’d get into…… Then I watched Blue Velvet by David Lynch and said to myself ‘How can I top that?’ So I quit.
Thus is the life of a person with low self esteem and a fear of failure.