Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired: Week 26

Posted by Edward Ernest | Jun 25, 2018 | Addiction, Self Esteem, Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired | 0 |

After the debacle of last week, dealing with the absentee website designer, then over thinking about how things are getting screwed up with this website, the first thoughts of falling off the wagon entered my mind since I began my journey of never being sick and tired ever again.

Without my exercise regimen due to injury, and now some obstacles in my website way, my mind has started to crave drugs. It’s disappointing to write it out, but it’s the reality of my life right now and all of a sudden it feels like I’m just trying to keep my head above water. 

The only way I could think to fight my craving was by calling my friend ‘Terry'(Not Their Real Name) who struggles with the same issues and always has time for me.

I was on the phone with Terry for a couple of hours to discuss how I was feeling, but it was mostly just to keep me busy until my cravings dissipated. All in all, Terry did the job like a champ. The most significant point Terry made was to remind me, if I were to have taken drugs, that I would just be kicking myself while I was high, which would be even worse, and the drugs wouldn’t even have the desired effect I wanted. And then I would most likely cry about it too.

Terry tried to get me to feel that moment of time by putting myself into shoes that I have walked in before. The terrible feeling was strong, and it helped me fight off my cravings. So, thank you, Terry. Love you!! 

When I got off the phone, I was all alone in my apartment, which can always be dangerous when in this headspace. However, I dove straight into dismantling and fixing this website, so I didn’t have to think. It’s kinda like painting or drawing. Your brain is concentrating on one thing to the point where everything else has melted away.

I felt pretty good about myself the next day, knowing that I had just tasted my first morsel of craving controversy and that I did all the right things to fend it off. I called a trusted confidant, got myself through the situation, kept busy after, and tried to fix my problem, instead of stewing about it and letting it eat me upset inside.

Even though this was a week of significant obstacles and tension, it finished off on a high note in my opinion. And tonight, I’m gonna go to bed really proud of myself, as I doze off into dreamland.

Thanks for listening.

Night Night.

Thanks for following my adventure of Being Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired. If you have any questions, I’m just an email away. Also, if you want to read from DAY ONE, CLICK HERE!



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