My life this past week has been pretty good health-wise. I’m back on the sober train, and it’s working. I’m eating healthy, and I’ve picked up my exercise habits a little bit more with some extra yoga in there. So on that end, everything seems to be back on track. However, now I have to deal with my lack of work ethic and this website, and where it currently stands.
In August of this year, Google did an algorithm update and to make a long story short, this website has been bleeding in the rankings ever since. Every day I look at the ranking losses and feel slightly worse about myself than the previous day. It does wonders for my low self-esteem such as wishing that I was never born etc. So I can’t say enough wonderful things about my rankings…….Now back to reality……. Whatever momentum I and this website had, we then took a giant punch in the face, and it just doesn’t seem to be healing in any way whatsoever. None of the fixes I’ve implemented have done jack squat, and my website traffic just isn’t where I want it to be.
I thought I worked pretty hard and earned some good fortune, but maybe I didn’t work as hard as I could have? Perhaps I should I have plugged away a little more so this wouldn’t have happened? And now that my back seems to be against a wall, a wall I might have created myself, maybe I should be working way harder than I am to fix the problem, instead of feeling like the wind has been stolen from my sails and pouting. I seem to have a lot of distracting thoughts, and I can’t break the cycle.
I’m in a huge kicking myself when I’m down mode and feel like I’m in a creative rut, by forcing myself to do a lot of this work instead of doing it because I love it. And to clarify, I do love it, I really do, but it’s just that I’m tired I guess. I feel like I need the support of others right now and I don’t know how to ask for it. I love the brainstorming of ideas on what to write or build next, but I don’t want to bother anyone about it, yet I miss the camaraderie of it all.
I’m frustrated because I’m not sure how to get out of this place at the moment. I’m not sure if I should just wait it out or try something new, and I have no idea what that something is either? But right now I feel like the quality of the posts and articles are not up to snuff compared to the early work on the site, and that bothers me. Maybe I need a change in the environment in which I do my work? Or just a change in routine in general. I’m hanging out at home way more than I ever did, instead of going to coffee shops to do extra work. Maybe the word ‘Complacent’ suits me best right now, and I need to get out of my comfort zone, because if I don’t, then this site will never break out of its freefall. And then I’ll be on the street looking for a job with a skill set of writing obscure, weird, stories for a very niche audience of me and Dave Foley.
Hey Dave! Thanks for reading!!!!
I’m going to overthink this for the rest of the week now. Ughhhhhh!!!
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