Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired: Day 51

Posted by Edward Ernest | Sep 13, 2017 | Body Image, Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired | 0 |

It’s the day after soccer, and I’m shocked that my body doesn’t hurt at all. In fact, I’m beginning to think that I might be super human.

In my history of exercising or athletic activity, I’ve never bounced back this easy before. This hard work is paying off, and it’s nice to see. It makes me feel stronger. So strong to the point that for dinner, I ordered sushi from a restaurant that was 1.17 kilometers away and I ran for my meal and then I ran home. This trick is the best if I haven’t mentioned it before. Especially if you want to eat something bad that night/day, like Pizza.

I will admit something that has been frustrating me even though it shouldn’t be frustrating me, which is the fact that my weight has been stuck at 175 pounds for awhile now. I feel guilty about thinking this because my goal from the beginning had nothing to do with my weight at all. It was just about feeling healthy, so I didn’t feel sick and tired all the time. Yes, I did have a goal weight but it wasn’t my goal.

As I mentioned, I’m feeling guilty, and that’s because I’ve slowly become quite vain about the weight part now and I’m quite upset that I’m thinking this way. All of a sudden I’ve become this thing I hate and I’m on the scale every single day. Of course, I want to look better than I did before. However, it’s now on my mind all the time. Am I this gross of a person?

Wherever I go, when people start complimenting me on how good I’m looking these days, it just feeds into my ego, and I know it’s not healthy, but I love it at the same time. It seems like it’s the driving force behind all of my exercise right now instead of the original goal if I’m actually honest with myself. How can I overcome this and get back to my old mentality? I liked that mentality way better.

I just want to be healthy and run past 20 years olds in a breeze and without my brain telling me to look into a window while I walk by to see how trim my belly looks or that maybe I still have weight to lose on my face because of some loose skin and my neck looks like it’s swallowing my head and maybe you should go for one of those freeze away fat systems they have now because if you don’t you’ll just be all neck and no face but with a nose and gross overgrown nose hairs and you’ll be ugly.

Can you see what’s happening to me?

I’ve become Frankenstein’s Monster.

This won’t end well.

Enjoy my Fitbit stats below.


Weight: 175 Pounds

Steps: 24,041

Distance: 18.19 km

Floors: 28

Time: 79 Minutes

Peak Heart Rate: 2 Minutes

Cardio Heart Rate: 14 Minutes

Fat Burn Heart Rate: 2 Hr 0 Minutes

Resting Heart Beats Per Minute: 61

Calories Burned: 3518

Calories Taken In: 1933

Food Log

(All Calories Are Best Estimates. When In Doubt I Went Higher)


(I’ve never been a breakfast guy FYI. Eating breakfast at all is new to me.)

Oatmeal with Fruit: 41o Calories


Garden Salad: 308 Calories

Afternoon Snack

Watermelon: 235 Calories


Sushi With Veggies: 576 Calories

Evening Snack

Apples: 200 Calories

Watermelon: 204 Calories

Thanks for following my adventure of Being Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired. If you have any questions, I’m just an email away. Also, if you want to read from DAY ONE, CLICK HERE!

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