Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired: Day 54

Posted by Edward Ernest | Oct 1, 2017 | Body Image, Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired | 0 |

I was up really early on this day and went straight to walking. And by early, I mean 8 a.m. is early for being on vacation.

The one thing you’ll notice in my Fitbit stats is that my resting heart rate is now 58 beats per minute and I don’t know if that’s fully correct or a glitch with my Fitbit but I’ll take it! It made me feel proud of myself because it’s a sign that I’m getting my heart into shape. It made me feel strong.

Feeling this way is the best mental tool I have in my constant battle with the vanity that’s growing inside me. And by vanity, I mean, my lifelong battle with my body image issues.

Besides walking, I really didn’t do much today as I’m on Florida parent time. Our days are centered around what we’re eating for lunch and what we’re eating for dinner. The schedule goes like this: Morning Activity/Workout, Lunch, Doing Errand or Hitting Golf Balls, Nap, Dinner, Watch TV, Sleep, Repeat The Next Day. It’s pretty much like this all the time unless my nieces are here and more creative/fun things happen.

On this day, we did errands and hit golf balls, ate lunch at home, but went out to their favorite Italian restaurant for dinner. I did my best to have a low-calorie healthy meal, and it worked. However, when I got home, I couldn’t resist those chocolate chip cookies again. They were just too good. I was like a dog when I saw them. My nose just started sniffing and smelling, and the force was just too strong, and I was just too weak.

I kept telling myself ‘You’re on Vacation! You deserve a break.’

So I broke.

Sugar is like my heroin running through my veins, but once I was done, the guilt set in. When I tried to sleep, I kept on thinking how I’ve ruined everything and that tomorrow morning I need to go on a serious run.

I just wanted to fall asleep to stop thinking and thank goodness I did.

Pretty much I’m becoming my own worst enemy on a day where I should have been proud of myself. My inner critic likes to strike at the end of the day, and it won’t let me have my day in the sun it seems.

I need to fix this as soon as possible, or I may eventually hit lower lows with the possibility of no highs.

This was the least funny/entertaining blog post I’ve ever written…….. I can’t do anything right today it seems.

Enjoy my Fitbit stats below.


Weight: 175 Pounds

Steps: 25,643

Distance: 19.11 km

Floors: 8

Time: 181 Minutes

Peak Heart Rate: 0 Minutes

Cardio Heart Rate: 12 Minutes

Fat Burn Heart Rate: 1 Hr 29 Minutes

Resting Heart Beats Per Minute: 58

Calories Burned: 3634

Calories Taken In: 1836

Food Log

(All Calories Are Best Estimates. When In Doubt I Went Higher)


(I’ve never been a breakfast guy FYI. Eating breakfast at all is new to me.)

Oatmeal with Fruit: 220 Calories


Sushi With Veggies: 648 Calories

Afternoon Snack

Watermelon: 108 Calories


Tilapia: 383 Calories

Broccoli: 105 Calories

Spinach: 96 Calories

Evening Snack

Chocolate Chip Cookies: 276 Calories

Thanks for following my adventure of Being Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired. If you have any questions, I’m just an email away. Also, if you want to read from DAY ONE, CLICK HERE!

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